Again...

I know, post overwhelm... but there's lots of things to catch up on and not so much time to do it in. Because as you see, by this time tonight - if all will have gone well and there were no major hitches, i should have taken possession of my house and moved the majority of my possessions into its four outdated walls. I'm excited, truly, i'm finally getting there - i do believe for a while i kinda ignored reality and pretended i hadn't really done such a thing as purchasing a home - i might have been on overwhelm - i might still continue to be for the next few months - i'll just need my dear friends and family to haul me out of such wallowings!
I am scared - that i won't keep up payments, that i'll miss bills, that i won't keep things up like they should be kept up, that i won't manage to get the renovations done that i'm been dreaming of - but then again, i know i shouldn't be all that pessimistic since God will provide the strength to get through this too - and this isn't a trial - it is a joy, despite all the grumblings... i just suppose having slept for the last night in this house on Glover and remembering all the memories here - i am reluctant to leave that too - another chapter over in life - yet another one to begin - another step on the journey per se.

I love company so feel free to drop in, my friends and family! I would love to have you over for tea and scones (wait, that means baking right? hmm... okay, tea and Oreos would do? Heehee - seriously, i do like baking - just haven't had much time to do it lately!)

Anyhow, i'm got to go and finish the last of my packing, organize my day and take down the shower curtain - all seems so final eh? I'll see you in green meadows - what a name!! I love it!