it's 3:30

It's 3:30 on Wednesday morning - the only person besides my co-workers who is likely to be up at this time is my mother, who is probably nursing a cuppa hot milk whilst thinking and praying about everyone who needs an extra thought and prayer or my little sister who is likely giving Benjamin yet another top-up as he is certainly doing lots of growing lately.  And i'm up... eyes getting kinda red and itchy, throat scratchy, legs a bit restless and i've hit my water limit for a bit - i usually drink like a fish for the first while on the shift and then it finally catches up with me around this time in the morning...
It's been a busy shift thus far, lots of confused people and odd situations to deal with in the middle of this night - kinda feels like a full moon somehow - though its quite foggy out there and you probably wouldn't know if there was a moon out there or not at this point.
And the countdown continues... for lots of different things... my hair dresser said to me the other day when i called her "oh i see you have a countdown on for your appointment" - being a bit silly and teasing me about my facebook wedding updates and countdowns... and me being all serious didn't quite get what she was on about for a few minutes - yep, not too quick on the uptake the last little while - too many things taking my attention and splitting it infinitely in so many directions that it's hard not to imagine my brains spilling out and making a nice mess on the ground....oh, gross...sorry, the filter between my brain and the virtual paper is pretty thin at this time. 
So yeah, the countdown... for the wedding day... is down to days, not even weeks now.  It's 11 days to go, 10 more sleeps, 2 more shifts after this one, and lots more on mental and physical to-do lists...people laugh at me for my lists but it's the only way i can remain a little bit sane.  Oh, the big stuff is done, but it's the little last minute stuff like "what do you mean, you need tablecloths?" or "you want food??".  Just kidding about those two but i was just trying to pull some quick examples from my slowing brain.  I realize more and more that the details are what trip you up and yet, somehow, those details are irrelevant at the end of the day - we just want to enjoy the day, being married to each other, being surrounded by our loved ones and celebrating God's goodness, no matter what the weather is (silly accuweather), whether we remember all the little things or not and even whether i trip walking down the aisle... well, hopefully the last one doesn't happen but you get my drift...
(yep, this is being posted at 11:10 pm, not 3:30 as falsely indicated - most of the post was written at that time but alas, the night got busy and i had to abandon my attempts at literary greatness, but better late than never right?)